Never mind, I'll find someone like you

I was driving on autopilot earlier today, and before I knew it, I was outside your house. I could never remember how to get there, I always had to call...and yet, there I was, sitting in my car, staring at your gate. I sat there, crying, for a while, then got it together and started making my way out. I got lost, of course, and had to stop seven or eight times to get directions.

I was driving on autopilot later today, and before I knew it, I had stopped near my aunt's house, where we spent time talking and laughing and "testing the waters". I drove away before someone saw me and invited me in, asking me why I was sobbing, offering solace, tissues and advice.

I let go completely, and yet, every fibre of my being kept pulling me to you, to thoughts and memories of you.

I don't think I ever hated and pitied myself more.

I learnt a lesson today - only one of us is crying about this, and it's not you. So I've shut down that part of me, put it away. I'm numb and empty, and I don't feel like myself any more. On the bright side, though, you're not on my mind. I don't think about you, my subconscious has thrown you out...my unconscious mind now bears the pain and scars of my love for you.

"Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
...Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead"