Closure

I'm kicking you out of my heart - officially. You don't deserve me.

I'll always be here for you if and when you need someone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on, or someone that will tell you how stupid you're being. Especially if you need someone to tell you how stupid you're being, but let's not go there now.

I deserve better. Someone that will treat me right. Someone who will make me laugh more than he makes me cry. Someone who will want to have me around, be proud to point to me and say, "yeah...I'm with her".

Don't get me wrong - you're a great guy. We've had some great times, and you'll always be one of the few men that make me feel safe...protected. I would still blindly trust you with my life. You're such a good person.

It breaks my heart to see your low self-esteem get the better of you.

You see, you let me convince myself that I wasn't worth it. It's my fault for even going there - but you did nothing to stop it. You played your passive aggressive manipulative mind games, hoping that I'd be broken enough to lean on no one but you for support, and that way, you'd have me around forever.

So let me clarify.

Yes, I will always be around - but that is by choice, not because I cannot live without you.

No, you came nowhere close to breaking me. I spent hours crying myself to sleep every night, regretting everything, every decision I made, every single thing I could have said or done differently. The pain was nearly unbearable. It took so much out of me to smile, to act normal. It hurt. You didn't break me...and I have my closest friends to thank for that - for reminding me that I'm too strong to let someone like you tear me apart.

This is goodbye in a lot of ways. It feels good.

After all this time, all it took was one line from you. I know you said it in anger - it hurt anyway.

I'll say it again - thank you for giving someone else the opportunity to get to know me.

Thank you for making it so easy for me to let go.