Monday, 30 May 2011

A beginning

The café is noisy. Talking people. Music.

She looks up to find his eyes locked on hers, and for a moment, everything, including her heart, stills.

A moment.
A moment of silence.
A moment of not being able to think, not being able to breathe.

They're sitting next to each other, talking without saying words. They smile, laugh, and sing along to the (sometimes) sappy songs blaring through the speakers. Just two people enjoying a latte, a synthetic orange juice, and each other's company.

She's wondering what's on his mind when he's looking at her like that. She wants to ask him, but knows he'll (probably) say, "nothing". She wants to look up, look into his eyes, hold his gaze, but knows she can't...not in public...

Not when her pulse races every time he looks at her like that... Not when her breath catches like that.

It's been eight days. Eight days of texting and laughter. It had been so long, she'd almost forgotten.

Long after they've said goodbye, she finds herself smiling at something retarded he's said or done.

A joke.

A compliment.

He's so different from anyone else she's known - refreshingly honest, for one. Secure, confident, smart, funny... He makes her laugh. He makes her day, sometimes unknowingly, just being himself.

Most importantly, she finds it so easy to be herself around him...there are no masks, no hidden agendas, no mind games, no passive-aggressive control issues, no power plays.

He's on her mind, and she's started to realise that she likes having him around.

Maybe...

She looks at him over her latte, smiling to herself as he sings along.

Maybe.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

I hope he's worth it...

Anyanka said...

I hope so too.

Anonymous said...

Setting yourself up to get hurt again, I see. Never learn your lesson, do you? He's going to hurt you, make you cry, give you self-esteem issues...

Good for us though. We get more angst to read.


D

Anonymous said...

He is not going to hurt you, nor make you cry.
Hazy, crazy, wasted or high... remember this: one life, live it.
It is the game of life, and it is difficult to find clean players.
Keep it simple.
Abstraction levels > Remember it is modern... all the best and from the likes of it, a good one it be./
The Real D.

Anonymous said...

Give him a chance.

If he hurts you, he won't live too long - there are too many people that love you too much to see you cry.

Anyanka said...

... :/

Anonymous said...

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn...

Anonymous said...

"There's a squirrel in my pants"

Anyanka said...

:)

Abhay Shetty said...

I love your poems..... very detailed.... kills the fun of imagination for the reader but.. detailing to your extent tell the reader wat to expect... sooopha like :)

Abhay Shetty said...

soopha like it.. detailed to the core.. usually detailing kills the imagination for the reader but in ur case its unlikely.. ;)