Let's take a moment to clarify....

I'm not who you want me to be.

I am short and overweight.
I have short stubby fingers and unattractive nails.
I don't have gorgeous hair or glowing skin (anymore).
I have scars on my skin that will never fade.
I don't have a sexy voice or a figure to die for.
My teeth are crooked and not sparkly white.
I have a few talents...like everybody else on the planet...but I'm not amazingly good at any of it.
I'm not incredibly funny, and I don't have a charming, winning personality. In fact, a lot of people don't think too highly of me the first time they meet me.


I can't be who you want me to be.

I don't trust people easily.
When I make friends, they're friends for life. I trust them with everything I have, and trust them not to tear me apart.
I don't date.
When I love/like someone, I give them everything I have.
I give them the power to break my heart.
And they do.


This is who I am.

I'm not perfect. I will never be.

I have my faults, lots of them.

I looked in the mirror just now and I wanted to cry.
I didn't like what I saw there anymore.
Frustrated, bitter and angry, I slid to my bedroom floor and shed a single tear.

This is what you do to me.

After all this time, all these years, this is what you do to me.

You're every guy that makes any girl feel worthless.
You're every guy that makes any girl feel like she must change just so you can love her a little more.
You're every guy that makes any girl want to put herself through hours of torture, hoping to see a smile on your face.

I'm not that girl.

I may not be tall, or sexy, or have a great figure. I may not have great skin, perfectly manicured nails, and beautiful hair. I may not be a super star, or the most popular person you know.

But I'm beautiful. I'm a good person. I've been knocked down so many times, but I've gotten up again. Over and over again. I'm a survivor. I love myself for what I am, faults included. Don't you ever forget that. Don't you ever try to make me feel otherwise.

You have no right.

I don't belong to you.